diffrence between a cow and a bean

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Trippy colorful dream

Ok, so I took a quick nap earlier this evening before I went out and I had the most vibrant colorful dream. So the dream goes like this.......
I am about to get ready for bed and there is a knock at my door and its Caleb and Curtis. I feel annoyed that I have to share my room with them, so I roll my eyes and sigh, but I let them in. Then we all go to bed, But we are all sleeping in my twin size barracks bed, which is why I was annoyed. So I'm on the right, Curtis is in the middle and Caleb is on the otherside. I snuggle down in the blankets and go to sleep. Then I am awakened by a sharp pain in my butt cheek!!
So I look under the covers to see why it hurts, and there is a gollum-like creature biting me. I get embarrased and cover back up and fight with the creature under the covers. Eventually I get him to go away by nearly ripping his arms off. While I am doing this I realize I am wearing Jeans and my wallet is still in my pocket. Then I notice Caleb is awake and looking kinda pissy. So I say, whats wrong with you. He says snottily, well, I cant sleep. So I say snottily Well, why not. Then he says I would be able to sleep if it wernt for the lack of cozy comfortable covers!! At that point I realize the covers are tucked in tight on my side of the bed and I've stolen them all.
Ok so thats what happened, but thats not the cool part. The walls in my room were so awsome. In my dream the walls were done in royal blue sponge paint with yellow sploches....but it wasnt just paint, it was paint that I had painted over the wall paper in my old room, and my momma had cut it down into perfect squares and sent it to my and I had taped it up in my new room to cover most of the walls. Other parts of the wall were done in shiny bright red peices of paper with an asian design. Then on the wall in front of my bed, with brick sized peices of white, gray and black paper with a few red peices, i had made a huge picture of a woman kneeling to pray. Next to here there were random papers with propaganda telling me to beware of marines and steer clear of younger men, and I thought Ha! go ahead and try to make me. The light in my room came from sorta low at the head of my bed and it was dim, but all of the colors in this dream were incredibly vibrant.
I'd eaten Kimchi right before I went to sleep............Maybe thats the key to colorful dreams :)

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Who am I ?!?!

Do you all ever have nights when you're tired and you know you should sleep but you just know that there is some great fun youd be missing out on... so you stay up trying to find out what exactly your up for?!?!
So tonight my mission was online Quizes. Here are the results.........
Personality test says... I am ESFJ = provider/guardian,
I am a pink kangaroo eating yogurt,
The video game character I'm most like is Mario
My Starwars personality is most like Obi Wan Kenobi (with a bit of Adm. Akbar+Chewy)
My inner dragon is the copper dragon(speaks with a soft irish accent)
My cowboy bebop themesong would be Stella by moor (whatever that is?)
If I were a biological molicule i would be water (whos thirsty)
If i were a dictator/sitcom star..(strange combination!) Apparently I would be Jesus of nazareth
If I were a street fighter I would be Chun Li
And finally..... My Anime hair color would be green.

Wow!! how's that for useless information.

*Elliot try to disregard any misspelling I'm nowtoo tired to spell check. :)

Monday, April 11, 2005

Love

I love my family. Some times I really feel like they need me and I feel guilty for not being there. I wonder if any of them think things would be better with me there. So much changes while I'm away. They are growing up without me. Everytime someone makes a bad decision, or something goes wrong, I think if only I were there, it would be diffrent. I feel like i've lost my place in my family. I'm more of an outside idea of something they are proud of. But I used to be a flawed complete person with my own function inside our family unit, I had influence,served a purpose. I added to the balance.
Brian is ............ I feel like somehow he shares my heart. With all our diffrences and disagreements, we are somehow the same. We love the same.
Brian,
I'm proud of how well you love Gillian. Dont sell yourself short, If she's not good enough, be strong and wait for someone who deserves all the love you're giving. I love you so much. I'm sorry we dont talk enough. I'll change that. :)

Mom and guy,
Love is a deision. you both made the decision to love eachother, you made a promise. So, do it already!
I love and respect you both very much, therefore I have a responsibility to tell you your being stupid. Dont be so careless with eachother. Dont be selfish. Dont think of yourself, put the other person first. Stop complaining about what they dont do, dont look for reasons to be mad at eachother. Make an effort to see the good in eachother. Talk to eachother when your happy!! Comunicate, but not just when something is wrong.
Guy-open your mouth, and when she talks dont just hear, you need to really listen and DO something.
Mom- learn to listen more, stop repeating yourself, dont try to change him.
If either of you expect the other one to change, dont. Instead look at what parts of yourselves need work.
Love eachother. Love is an ACTION. You have to do it! It wont just be there. Dont be lazy. You used to have so much fun together. Remember before you had a house full of trouble making teenagers...............be romantic, start taking care of EACHOTHER again.
I love our family so very much we alll need to take better care of it.

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

OOH-RAH Devil Dawg

YAY! So my friend Elliot has been in Iraq for the last year and finally hes out of the desert! YAY! We got lucky and our paths crossed and We got to spend an awsome week together. I also got to see my friend Daniel, and I made a kickass new friend, Mike, or maybe it was walrus. Anywho?!? Me and Jacqueline Had a great week showing the boys around. I got to two step to my hearts content. :) And, DJ magic Mike provided non-stop country music delight. I love country music, and Japan is definatly lacking there! Soo much fun!!
On top of all this excitement, I recieved one of the best compliments of my life. Elliot said I was valuable.... Its amazing how one word can make such an impact.